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Parenting
DATE: 02/11/2008 10:23:10 / MOOD: Hopeful
Okay- By all means I am not the "Bible Thumper" mom, but my church is doing a series on building the family within the home. It got me to thinking (doesn't take much I guess!)
It dawned on me that I tend to be more of the CHURCH mom, you know the kind that take the children to church and it is virtually left IN the church when I go home. I suppose that I have "relied" on my GREAT church to raise my children up in a Christian Environment. Don't get me wrong here- I do explain their wrongs and rights by reminding them what God likes for us to do or not do. I just desire so much more as a mother. I work full time and have two kiddos on my own, the other parent in the picture isn't exactly the Role Model I would want for my children as far as learning a Christian upbringing- but that is something on it's own that is a struggle for me to deal with. I WANT and Desire my kids to open up more about having a relationship with Christ, but I also know it starts with me! NOW WHERE TO BEGIN would be a great question! When I grew up my parents (Who are still married) and my three siblings were at the church LITERALLY every opportunity that the doors were open. Sunday Morning, Sunday Night, Monday Visitation, Wednesday Night, and the cycle continued until I was about 16. But the times that we were NOT at home- my home life was TOTALLY different! My mom and Dad argued quite a bit, and they were NEVER affectionate towards each other in front of us. BOTH issues had me wondering if that is why we went to church so often- as if to pretend we were The Cleavers, but the moment that we left the church, so did the Comfort Zone. I am not blaming my parents at all, My mom went to church only with her mom growing up, and my dad never went.
I guess in this LONG Rambling blog is me FINALLY admitting that I have all turned into my parents in many regards. All is not lost- but now I have a chance to do it right, and set an example for my 13 y/o and 8 y/o and pray that it is not too late. Last night when I was saying prayers with my son before bed, I asked him if there was anything that he would like for me to pray about- something I am trying to do now EVERY NIGHT, he said and then asked if I had anything that I needed prayers for, I told him yes! He perked up just a little and asked "what?" I told him to pray that I would become the mommy that God would want me to be. Given that little bit of light, I guess I am doing SOMETHING right, one day at a time. 
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